7:22 AM PDT - Nov. 03, 2004
i don't reject evolution. i don't oppress homosexuality. i don't pillage the earth or attempt to control the reproductive rights of women. i do believe that a human embryo is a human being. i do believe that abortion is murder. i do believe that the death of anyone embryonic or otherwise is a fricking sad state. i might have a brother or sister somewhere i've never met who got aborted for all the wrong reasons. i don't show contempt for the poor. i fricking grew up poor. i am not a crazy, ignorant zealot. i don't believe in rubbing success into anyone's face. i've had it done to me many times in my life. i do believe that it is wrong to wish for disaster on anyone. i've seen and experienced the hardship first hand of growing up minority in America. i've been humiliated and suffered and lost loved ones to white racists in Illinois. these people also voted for Carter and Mondale. i know because in 1976 they had big Carter and Mondale signs in their houses and in 1980 they had Mondale/Ferraro all over their yard. my parents, despite all that, voted for Democrats. they still do. i don't. but that's why we live here. we know that life here, despite the disagreements with the country direction and leadership, still affords us many freedoms that our home country did not. i've learned way too many lessons here in America. America beat the crap out of me growing up. in some ways, it still does. if white folks think racism is an over and done issue, come and live my life today. see it live at my workplace. motherfucking corporate america is still based on the old boy's network and the white man's golf game. and still and i'd rather live here, and vote here, and work through the system here than work through the system in another country. i too have lived in a country that is not the US. where they pay to stuff ballot boxes and kill you for having the wrong view. not even for a second was i ever glad that the world trade center toppled. and i've in at least three journals today that there are people who, because of this election, were glad it happened, and wish more of this to happen to the US. fucking unbelievable! to me, to wish that is utterly irresponsible and cruel, like wishing death or evil on a brother i don't like. i'm not glad ever when i hear that a person has died -- war or otherwise. the bottom line yesterday was that the 18-25 demographic, for all the P Diddy and the Rock the Vote didn't show. they didn't vote. they were too busy or didn't want to brave the long lines or lied to exit interviewers. whatever. it's sad to see read people here at dland who want to now leave America or wish for a disaster on a city or a state or in effect to wish that buildings fall and more deaths occur. it's heartbreaking and naive and stupid. you ought to take lessons from those of us who have had to live with oppression and deal with all this shit from day one. we still stick around and fight the system. y'all have the luxury of being able to blend in and run. and good riddance Kerry didn't get elected. for a man who claimed throughout his campaign to exhibit "faith in works", he sure does show his colors as a "Catholic"... ugh. he would have been more palatable to me as a presidential candidate had he not mentioned himself as a Catholic. he's a bad Catholic. and a bad liar. for him to take Eucharist with a straight face insults me to the very core. i would not want that man in my Church. and i would not want him as President. i'm glad he fucking lost.
