7:40 AM PDT - Dec. 14, 2004
heard from my sister that my parents are thinking about divorce. well, my mom anyway. and my mom is looking for people to take her side. and my sister is siding with my dad. and i'm keeping well out of it. after 37 years of marriage divorce seems pointless. i thought about it, and wondered if i felt hurt from this in anyway. and i think i don't. i'm just disappointed that this was her chosen solution. not to look inward, to see if she is actually the cause of her problems with life. to see if maybe her nitpicking of my father is driving him away or making him less wont to do things for her. to see if maybe my father is actually very patient with her as her reasoning skills seem to be eroding away, that maybe the side effects of all her medication are doing the talking. to see if maybe the passing of my grandmother is bringing her to depression this holiday season. i don't know. i have friends who have divorced. they all tell me it's painful. for the couple, for their kids, for the families, for those who invested time in the coupling. i always thought my parents would struggle through, the scorpion and the turtle, and all the words, the barbs, the stings, the suffocating and the criticism, and i watch my dad just gut through it all. he's no angel. but he's stuck with my mom each day. i have no idea how he does it.
